34. My quiet rides to work in the morning.
35. Worship music.
36. Finding encouragement in a place I least expected to.
It only takes a moment to decide to break free from the past... from that which we have always known... from failure.. from the familiar... And yet many prefer comfort over commitment to change, and fuse themselves to the deception of believing that they are the exception to the need for transformation..... Out of insecurity we begin to compare ourselves to the people around us, often seeking out those 'less together' than we are. It makes us feel good knowing we can justify our own refusal for change by diverting attention elsewhere, and continuing to play a role that people can 'look up to'... And yet.... The more I let my own eyes be opened, it is somehow clear that there is great strength in brokenness and great power in the humility of being able to admit how desperately I need a Savior. Deciding change is one thing, but allowing yourself to be changed is quite another.
I have spent so much time trying to change myself. Trying to adjust this or that, quitting this, starting that. Change must come from the inside out. That is way beyond my control. So often I forget who is really in charge. My 23rd year of life has been an eye opening one. I've let go many times, but I have failed to let God.Today I'm surrendering all. Today I'm letting go and Letting God.
I know I have written so much about change. Probably a lot of the same stuff. It's just where I am and what I'm going through.