The past month has been exhausting. My relationship with the Lord had been pushed to the back burner. The lack of a relationship was taking its toll on me mentally, physically and emotionally. I didn't know where to go. I prayed for God to break me. I asked Him to do whatever He needed to do to mold me into the woman He wanted me to be. And he did. It was a process, but I am broken.
You can't have spiritual maturity without facing personal truth. -Joyce Meyer-
My personal truths are some hard pills to swallow. The hardest one to swallow was my selfishness. I was constantly looking at others and thinking about how selfish they are. But God revealed to me that I am a very selfish person. I know that most of us are at some point. But I am selfish in every aspect of my life. My walk with God, my relationships, my job, my money and my time. I kept asking God what I needed to do to serve Him. All while being convinced that I was doing everything right already.
I spent most of last night talking and crying with my sister-in-law about my feelings, what I am going through, and what I thought God was trying to teach me. We talked about being selfish and how God calls us to put others above ourselves. ( Don't be selfish; don't try to impress others. Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourselves. Philippians 2:3) I went to bed last night and opened my 40 Day Devotional to "Day 2". It was a devotional about serving others. God is funny sometimes. But I got the point.
I want to be like Christ. I want people to see him through me. Becoming "like" Jesus means SERVING like Jesus. It doesn't matter how nice I am or how good I am at my job. I can't be like Jesus if I'm not helping people. I am so guilty of living with the attitude "What can I get?" rather than "What can I give?" God has called us to serve others. No matter what. ( But Jesus called them together and said, "You know that in this world kings are tyrants, and officials lord it over the people beneath them.
But among you it should be quite different. Whoever wants to be a leader among you must be your servant,
and whoever wants to be first must become your slave. For even I, the Son of Man, came here not to be served but to serve others, and to give my life as a ransom for many." Matthew 20:25-28) He gave us all our own talents and abilities and wants us to use them not for our benefit, but for the benefit of others. ("God has
given gifts to each of you from his great variety of spiritual gifts.
Manage them well so that God's generosity can flow through you.
Are you called to be a speaker? Then speak as though God himself
were speaking through you. Are you called to help others? Do it with all
the strength and energy that God supplies. Then God will be given glory
in everything through Jesus Christ. All glory and power belong to him
forever and ever. Amen" 1 Peter 4:10-11) The night before Jesus was taken to the cross, He left the greatest example of serving by washing the disciples feet. All while knowing what was coming, and that one would betray him. ("I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you. Very truly I tell you, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them" John 13:15-17) Serving others IS serving God.
Not only are we called to serve, we are called to be humble and joyful servants and "our attitudes should be the same of that as Christ Jesus." I am taking this challenge head on. I will be doing my best from now on to serve others whenever possible. Even if it's a small gesture, holding a door, buying someones lunch, asking how someones day is. Big or small, serving is serving. I am praying that God will give me the opportunity to turn ordinary moments into extraordinary lessons. I challenge you to do the same.
"Dear children, let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth." -1 John 3:18
and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken
together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.”-Luke 6:38