We are all afraid of something. I'm not talking about spiders, snakes and heights. I'm talking about real emotional fears. Fear of rejection. Fear of inadequacy. Fear of being hurt. Fear of being alone.
I have found myself plagued with fear the last few weeks. I have never been one to be "afraid" of things but, the more I find out about the world and the people that live in it, the more I fear. Some days I wish I could be a child again. Just to know what it's like to have no fear. Children rarely fear anything. They never worry about falling off of a chair or the couch. And when they do fall, they usually get right back up and do it again. They aren't afraid of not being good enough, whether their picture is pretty enough, or if their outfit is cool enough. They have such simple, sweet little minds that can't possibly understand all of the things that they should fear and that could hurt them.
It's almost impossible, as an adult, to have NO fear. There will always be a fear of something. The hardest part is how we handle our fears. Lately, I have been completely overwhelmed by my fears in almost every aspect of my life.
Most of my fears come from past experiences or things people have said or done to me. Fear can hold you captive in a way that no other emotion can. It can hold you back, drag you down, break your spirit and steal your joy. My fears have had so much control over me and I didn't even realize it. Fear has hurt my relationships, my job, my personal growth and everything in between. I've had no idea where to go or which direction to turn because I have been so afraid of the "What ifs".
The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me? Psalm 118:6
Sometimes I forget that I am not alone, that I am not in this fight by myself. I forget, almost daily that the Lord is always by my side...always. It seems that the further I drift away from him, the more powerful my fears become. My answer lies in seeking him. It's really that simple.
I will no longer be held captive by my fears.